beginning. [holding my breath]

i signed up for this blog a few days ago. i didn't really have any intention of writing anything for a while. i was bored, and curious, and sometimes when i am anxious, i start trying at random to get things done, just to get something out of the way. start a blog was on my list.

this week i have been trying to write a support letter. in september, i am planning on moving to haiti. and so i wanted to let people know about it, and ask them to pray for me (a lot!) and maybe even share some of their money with me. typically those are the two things that you ask for in a support letter, and that is easy enough. but also, it is usually a good idea to tell people what you are doing and why you are asking them for their prayer and their money (i suppose people will give you their prayer easy enough, but i think they usually want a pretty good reason to give you their money, and that is understandable). and that is where i have been having difficulty.

it isn't exactly that i don't know what i am doing and why i am asking for prayer and money. it is just that as a general rule, my thoughts don't easily condense and i am not gifted with the art of brevity. so i have been having a pretty tough go at writing a support letter.

this morning, the thought occurred to me that maybe i don't need to write a support letter. maybe it is just a formality (and as you may know, i am not really one for formality). and then my conscience chimed in and reminded me that it requires an awful lot of paper and stamps and gas for all of the mail trucks. conscience#2 then told me that i was just being lazy and i began a new struggle for the day.

i decided to just give it a shot. i don't want to start feeling like i am losing it over how to write a support letter, and so far i have spent way too many hours writing and re-writing it, trying to make it sound right, trying to make it look right, trying to impress everyone with my deepness of thought and what-not. so i decided to abandon ship for a while and go with what i've got (not much).

for now, i think that i am just going to have a support blog. i won't call it that, because i don't like the way it sounds. but here, i am going to write about my days and my thoughts and try to explain this journey (to haiti, God-willing) as i discover it. thank you for reading thus far, and thank you, in advance, for your love and mercy and patience, and your support.

may God shine upon us. may we be washed with His mercy and covered with grace.
and may peace be with us all!