over the past month or so, we have been making some progress. we've been figuring things out a bit more. i think we cleared the first major curve.
tonight we had a meeting with Pastor Charles. i don't call him Pastor Charles, just Charles, because he is my friend and because i do not like titles and because i do not want to be called Missionary Zack. Charles shared with us about his vision for this ministry, the vision he had twelve years ago when he started. he shared his thoughts on where things have gone and how they are going. and he asked for help. "i need help. i am asking for help. i am crying for help. what can you do to help me?"
i got the chills just now writing that. because for me, it was what i have been waiting for all of these past three months. i did not come here to relax. i did not come here to experience life in the third world. i came here because the Gospel calls me to serve, to lay down my life for the Kingdom of Heaven, and because i felt the gentle voice of God telling me that this is where He wants for me to do that. and i have long been tired of living for myself.
but it has been hard. most days, i still feel like i don't know what i'm doing, or that i can't do anything at all. and even during this past month, since i have been given the responsibility of overseeing construction for the ministry, i have felt like actually performing that role is an impossibility. and i felt alone in my efforts.
there is nothing easy, nothing that lacks difficulty living here. haiti is hard. i have heard many people say how awful it is here, how frustrating, how discouraging, how this place will eat you. but then there is always the refrain: but it's worth it. and i believe that it is too.
tonight we talked. Charles was asking for help. and by the grace of God we responded. we shared our hearts, our thoughts, our vision, our hope. we met in the place that God had arranged for us tonight. and we have begun. things are going to change.
after our meeting with Charles, we sat down as a team to talk about what we had talked about. we were all encouraged. we talked about what our new roles would mean. we talked about how different it will be to wake up each day with purpose, knowing what we should set out to do, where we fit in. and we talked about money. because with our new roles comes new need. because we have been given authority and responsibility and opportunity. and now we have to figure out how to make all of the things that we've been talking about a reality.
i hope to write more later. as i have said before, i do not really like writing about details. but i want very much that you would be able to see into this place, to see the life that God has given us. i would like for you to be able to see into this world, to see how the Gospel flows here. for now, i do ask for your prayers. part of my new responsibility is to oversee construction. this basically means to decide what to do and when and how to do it and to make sure that it is done well. there is much to be done, and it certainly seems that nothing is ever done easily. so please pray for patience, and for wisdom, and that i would lead with Love, that i could be an example to these men of Godliness, that i would enjoy my work, that i could stop thinking about it all at night and go to sleep. also, i will taking on most [all] of the responsibility of managing the campus here. maybe i should have listened in my leadership management class.
let us walk in Love . . .
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